Vitriol

Pain is amorphous and fairly hard to describe
sciatic pain is no joke, but clearly not bone graft pain
either way,  it really hurts.
My employer couldn't give a fuck
I expected that
Welcomed it really.
What I didn't anticipate is my family not giving  fuck.
Makes me want to spew venom.
So I try to quit drinking and then pinch my sciatic nerve
thus can't sit stand lie down
can't BE without pain.
So I have had a few,
not an alcoholic's few
two beers.
Still cant sleep.
Slept eight hours in three days
want to die.
Fuck everybody and everything
I'm still going to work in the morning at 5:45 am
rent don't wait
groceries to let go bad.
damn goddamn