Rather Die

I can tie a noose like a motherfucker

from a silk tie 

hemp rope

nylon cord 

what the fuck ever.

Never was a boy scout

quit at Cubs 

but I taught myself to tie a noose

so I could do it right 

when I need to.

No lynching,

love my melanistic folk

unless I'm driving 

or waiting tables 

regardless

not klanning.

If I were to hang

I'd wear boots 

so as to catch all the piss

Id wear a turtle neck

to prevent the Claret from staining the wood.

Easy clean up 

I know how put upon you feel domestically

But god damn it, you'd find me.

Purple of face

tongue swollen

lolling

You'd find me.

Then you might have a real reason to hate me.

I'd be beyond caring

The dream had ceased

died or so I thought

Fantasy end

I'm back baybay

Forget the woods and forget waiting

it'snot about y'all

What holds me back now

is kids that will never be mine

because of some massengill motherfucker't and easy abortions

Babies for him, never for me.

Can't understate that

not ever.

Never mine

Nevermind.

I didn't do it